what i am learning ... part 2.

I am learning things about me.

1. One of the bigger problems I have with myself is managing stress. I stress frequently and forget to decompress.

As most sane people know and understand well, stress can be caused by several situations. And can always lead to more headache or heartache than it's worth. Stress is horrible and I've been doing it often. About little things, about big things. Doesn't matter the size; and it's like an addictive. If I don't notice myself slipping into that habit, then I'm not actively checking my behavior and everything else follows. Bitterness and anger are just byproducts of my inadequacy.

Putting a check on behavior. Doesn't happen in my own strength; this is something I had to learn (and am continuing to learn) through the prompting of the Holy Spirit. If I don't remain in Him on a day-to-day basis, you better bet I choose my own way, nine times out of ten!

2. When under stress, I forget things.

Like, tomorrow's midterm and presentation. Oh dear. Praise the Lord in all things -- I was able to finish the idea for my presentation, which is what I absolutely must have in order to feel confident in front of everyone in class. I abhor being ill-prepared! Substitute teaching may not be cut out for me, haha.

3. When I forget things and then remember I've forgotten them, all kinds of havoc breaks loose.

This time, it was better because I figured out the root of the problem, but in past times ... I'm like a pot ready to boil over! Watch me blow some steam and get back at it. It's kind of embarrassing, actually.

Edit: 7 Oct, 2am. Alright. Bedtime it is for this chick.

what to do, what to do?

When the apartment is overwhelmed with hyenas ... I recommend leaving for a quieter place. Or buying a good pair of earplugs, in case you want to sleep. These may only be of use on weekends, however. Sleeping through A.M. alarms designated for school days is not recommended practice.

CRAP.

C - can I get a witness?
R - research papers are not that fun.
A - and I have one due tomorrow.
P - perhaps someone wants to write it for me?

:)

EDIT : I was joking ...

worldviews.

For a group of professed Christians, they were uninformed. I was appalled, really.

Did you really not know what Postmodernism or the Humanist Manifesto are?

That's what was on my mind the entire class period. Goodness, I sat in on a 'secular' classroom in which the teacher was instructing kids on Christianity. In seventh grade.

Now that our world is moving past that and onto the next best thing, it might help to get a clue!

the view from my window.

Four adjectives describe it.

Flat, brown, dry, overpopulated.

But oh!

The sunset is beautiful.

contemplation.

When there is so much to do and so little time,

I try not to think about how much I miss home.

...The very clouds beckon me
Awake in me a desire to leave
...And into my mind, I flee
But I stop, because I believe

To do so would be to waste time -- and it's short

Time here is expensive and if I miss the mark ...

...Anything less than a "B"
And I do not pass the test
...Regardless of my excuses
Means I did not do my best

I want to do well and live well and eat well --

Wait a minute, where did all that extra time go?

...Here I am, contemplating
Struggling here, a bit --
...Wondering what I'm doing?
How-to on time management

When I return home, like a flood the joy for me!

So thankful that Los Angeles is not my home city.

...Not only will I see you
My family, church, and friends
...Fall in love with Seattle, too
My heart yearns toward this end.